Inspired by a conversation I had recently I was reminded what it feels like to live a life on other peoples terms. Many say that ”I am doing what I want” but when you listen more closely you get a sense that they are not speaking truthfully. This sparked the question ”how can I be sure of that I actually am doing what I want”?
There are always at least two voices within us. First the loud and noisy brass band which tells us what we are supposed to do and what we should do in order to become more happy but then there is this quiet flute which plays a completely different melody. It isn’t interested in showing off, proving itself or even trying to be unique and special. You recognize it by its subtleness and its friendly and caring tone. Can you hear it? What does it tell you?
I don’t know about you but for me it took a long time before I started to hear my melody and when I heard those beautiful tones I didn’t want to stop dancing. I can sometimes feel people around me pointing at me, whispering and they might even laugh at me but I don’t care. I choose to dance because to me, a life without dancing doesn’t seem like fun to live. Nietzsche captures this beautifully in ”And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music”.
May I have this dance?